Working on yourself is the most difficult undertaking you could ever embark on.
I go quiet on the socials sometimes, precisely because I am working on myself and I cannot share every step of the process with you all. I have learned that granting unrestricted access to you and your inner self is not a very prudent thing to do.
I realized the other day as I was praying the Examen (google St Ignatius of Loyola) just how out of touch I am with the outside world. It is very easy to block what doesn’t nurture you when you get to my age😋
One might argue that it is easier to live a holy life when you are not subjected to temptations and my isolation certainly cuts down on the problematic encounters, which might lead one astray. Perhaps the thorn on my side is within and it’s about time I start tackling it.
Self-awareness doesn’t just happen overnight or without any discomforts, prompting it. I will not be like St James and tell you to count it pure joy. That’s for full-time hardcore Christians.
Ride the waves, the proverbial ups and downs of life and hang on for dear life because ain’t nothing smooth about this life. Cry if you must, shout if you must, but rest assured that whatever dark tunnel you are in has an opening on the other end. It helps to believe in a higher power, whatever you might perceive him/her or it to be.
In conclusion, if the higher power managed to create all that we see, hear, feel, touch and smell, trust me they can make your life easier and even your wildest dreams possible. Just keep on dreaming, asking and believing. Your time is coming. Your blessings will locate you at the appointed time.
This is what’s in my spirit tonight as loadshedding presents me with this moment of total silence.
Let the church say Amen.